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Why Anxious Attachment Feels Addictive and How to Heal It

Mon, 14 Jul 2025 15:58:17 GMT

If you're part of the anxious attachment girly pop tribe, say "I"! You're not alone. I've supported countless women through this because I've lived it, too. My nervous system used to default to anxious tendencies, especially in dating and relationships. Today, I want to unpack why the chase felt so addictive and how I finally broke free.

Understanding Anxious Attachment Styles.

Attachment theory, developed by John Bowlby and Mary Ainsworth, explains how early caregiving shapes the way we relate to others. There are four main attachment styles:

Anxious Attachment: Develops from inconsistent caregiving. As adults, we may fear abandonment, seek reassurance, and feel emotionally "needy."
Avoidant Attachment: Stems from emotionally distant caregivers. Often results in people avoiding closeness and overvaluing independence.
Fearful-Avoidant Attachment: Often rooted in trauma, creating a push-pull dynamic of craving and fearing intimacy.
Secure Attachment: Emerges from consistent, nurturing caregiving. People feel safe expressing needs and trusting in connection.

Today, we're zooming in on anxious attachment and how it plays out in everyday life.

Reframing the Label: You're Not "Anxiously Attached."

Let’s start with a gentle reframe. Instead of thinking of attachment as a permanent identity, for example, “I am anxiously attached”. Instead, think of it as a tendency: “I have anxious attachment tendencies.”

Why does this matter? Because our words shape our world. One is a fixed label; the other leaves room for movement, healing, and growth. As someone who lives and breathes somatic work, I’m here to tell you: change is not only possible, it’s natural. Your attachment style is not set in stone. It adapts, especially with conscious awareness and nervous system regulation.

What Anxious Attachment Feels Like (From the Inside).

I know the spiral. An unanswered text sends your nervous system into panic. You re-read conversations, check locations, and overthink tone. You over-function in relationships, trying to control outcomes and avoid rejection.

I know the feeling. That deep, gripping fear of abandonment lurks behind every unanswered text. The two-hour delay in response time must mean they’ve lost interest. The drop in vocal excitement when they say “hey.” Your brain says, 'Something is off. ' And when you finally get that text back? Relief floods in. The high hits hard. It's like your body exhales.

But that's not intimacy : it's survival. This anxious cycle doesn't just affect romance. It manifests in friendships, at work, and even in how you interact with yourself.

Do You Truly Want an Emotionally Available Partner?

Here's a truth that hit me hard: If you continue to attract emotionally unavailable people, chances are… you're emotionally unavailable too. Let that land.

That constant checking and need to know their every move? That’s codependency.
The urge to merge with someone and wanting to be with them 24/7? That’s enmeshment.
Feeling like you’ve finally met “the one” after two dates? That’s limerence (a chemical cocktail of fantasy and hope).

I get it. I chased those highs for years. Likewise, I mistook intensity for intimacy. I wasn't broken: I was wired for chaos because it felt familiar. I loved the chase, the push-pull dynamic, the drama that felt like passion. It’s what I knew love to be. But emotional roller coasters aren’t intimacy, they’re survival patterns.

As a somatic intimacy coach, I don’t pathologize these patterns; I illuminate them. You don’t need to be “fixed.” You need to understand your needs, your nervous system, and your inner world with compassion and empathy.

What Secure Attachment Looks Like.

Secure attachment isn't about being perfect. It's about being present . It looks like:

Trusting that you're safe in the connection, even in conflict.
Expressing your needs without guilt or fear.
Choosing peace over performance.
Repairing after rupture, not avoiding it.

It's not about never feeling anxious. It's about knowing how to soothe yourself without chasing validation.

My Journey: From Anxious to Conscious.

I've felt the sting of rejection. I've begged for love, not believing I deserved it. But once I started staying with my emotions instead of fleeing from them, everything changed.

Last year, I noticed a shift. While dating, I caught myself wanting to spiral. But instead of reacting, I paused.

I asked:

What am I feeling?
What do I need?
Can I meet that need within myself first?

That slight pause created space for choice . And I began walking away from dynamics that activated more anxiety than connection.

Chaos Isn't Chemistry, It's Conditioning.

I wasn't addicted to love. I was addicted to uncertainty . The nervous system doesn't crave what's healthy; it craves what's familiar. And for many of us, that means chaos. But the moment I began choosing regulation over reaction , I rewired my system for peace.

A Love That Feels Safe.

Fast-forward to now: I'm in a long-distance relationship with someone who is grounded and emotionally present. And while that might sound boring to my past self… It's life-giving! One night during a relationship check-in, he said:

��️ "Even when we argue, you stay. You don't shut down or hang up. That tells me you care."

And that's it. Secure love is about staying. Not perfectly. But consistently. Even through the mess.

5 Somatic Tools for the Anxious Girly Pop.

Ready to move from anxious to anchored? Here are five somatic tools to support your journey:

1. Name the Sensation.

Instead of spiralling into thoughts, drop into your body, ask:

What am I feeling in my chest? My jaw? My belly?
Name it (tightness, heat, buzzing). This brings awareness back to the present.

2. Use Soothing Touch.

Put your hand on your heart. Apply pressure. Rock gently. Feel your body. Ground your energy. Safety begins with self-contact.

3. Talk to Your Inner Child.

Before you reach for your phone, go inward. Say: "I know you're scared. I'm here. I've got you." It may feel silly, but your nervous system is listening.

4. Use Secure Scripts.

Get familiar with what secure communication sounds like:

��️ "I feel anxious when I don't hear from you. Can we talk about that?"

��️ “I want closeness, and I also want to respect your space. Let’s find a rhythm that works.”

Speaking your needs doesn’t make you needy. It makes you brave. Speaking your truth IS intimacy.

5. Titrate Your Tolerance.

Stretch your comfort zone slowly. Let yourself feel a little anxious without reacting. Then return to safety. That's how you build capacity for secure love.

Secure Attachment Isn't a Label, It's a Feeling.

You're not broken. You're not too much. Furthermore, you're human, with a nervous system that's trying to protect you. You can create safety inside your body, and that safety will transform how you relate to others.

If this resonates, you don't have to navigate it alone. I support women just like you in reclaiming their worth, regulating their nervous system, and creating secure, soulful love.

Your anxious parts aren't the enemy. They're your inner protectors. Let's get curious, not critical. Book a complimentary 20-minute strategy call or schedule a full somatic intimacy coaching session. Your future self is waiting.

Ready to Begin?

If you’re curious about this work, the best way to know if it’s right for you is to try it. Book a free strategy call to share your goals, ask questions, and experience the connection. There’s no pressure, just presence. No performance, just permission.

Let’s explore what intimacy could feel like when your body leads the way.

What Is the Shadow? A Somatic Approach to Jung’s Wisdom.

Mon, 07 Jul 2025 17:16:08 GMT

Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life, and you will call it fate.

- Carl Jung

This quote hit me like a truth bomb five years ago at the beginning of my coaching journey. It stayed with me, and it shaped how I show up in this work. In this article, I want to unpack what this means, especially from a somatic (body-based) perspective. Because shadow work isn’t just psychological theory, it’s also nervous system work , emotional memory , and the way you hold yourself inside your own body. Let’s explore what the shadow is, why it matters, and how we begin to reclaim the parts of ourselves we've hidden away.

What Is the Shadow?

Carl Jung coined the term shadow to describe the unconscious parts of ourselves we’ve repressed, often because we learned they weren’t safe to express in the environments we grew up in.

These might be your boldness, your anger, your sensuality, your grief. These qualities are not inherently bad or broken. They’re simply the pieces of you that were labelled “too much,” “not enough,” or “unloveable”, so you tucked them away.

Once hidden, the shadow doesn’t disappear. It silently runs the show from beneath the surface. The body stores what the mind tries to forget.

Consciousness Explained: A Kitchen Metaphor.

Picture your consciousness like an open-concept kitchen. You can see what’s happening, your thoughts, emotions, and memories are right there.

Now, imagine a door to the dining room. What’s behind it? That’s your unconscious. The part you can’t see, but that influences everything on the menu.

The classic iceberg analogy applies too: Your conscious mind is the tip above water. The shadow? That massive glacier underneath. It’s the one that sank the Titanic, and it can steer your relationships, reactions, and self-worth without you even knowing.

Studies suggest that up to 95% of our thoughts, feelings, and behaviours come from the unconscious. That means only 5% of what we do is fully conscious.

The Shadow and Intimacy: Why It Matters More Than You Think.

If 95% of your inner world operates unconsciously, guess what? That includes how you show up in love, sex, and relationships.

The shadow holds the parts of you that long to be seen but also fear rejection. Without awareness, you only bring 5% of yourself into connection, the “safe” or “acceptable” version. That leaves very little room for real intimacy.

You might say, “I want deep love,” while simultaneously hiding the very parts that would allow that love to land.

Shadow work helps you close that gap. It invites the messy, tender, hidden parts of you into the light, so that you can be fully seen, loved, and connected in a way that feels nourishing and real.

How the Shadow Is Born.

As children, we’ll do anything to keep a connection. If that means silencing your anger, shrinking your joy, or hiding your needs, you’ll do it to feel safe. You got praise for being polite and quiet. Your big emotions led to punishment or disconnection. So, you learned to shut them down. And over time, they moved into the shadow.

The brilliant survival strategies you created in childhood, pleasing others, numbing your body, and avoiding conflict often become the biggest roadblocks to intimacy, joy, and embodiment in adulthood.

They become default settings. And unless you pause to look at them, they become blind spots.

Shame: The Shadow’s Favourite Accessory.

Brené Brown’s research taught us that shame isn’t something we’re born with; it’s something we learn . Shame thrives in silence. And it’s one of the strongest forces that pushes our truth into hiding.

Here’s the difference:

Guilt says, “I did something bad.”
Shame says, “I am bad.”

Shame keeps us quiet. It makes us curl inward, avoid eye contact, and hide.

The body carries shame through sensation:

�� Flushed cheeks.
�� A pit in your stomach.
�� Frozen limbs.
�� The desire to disappear.

And until we name it, it keeps our shadow locked in place.

My Story: Love, Shame & Spotify Stalking.

In one of my past relationships, I entered a deep shame spiral. We broke up and got back together too many times to count. During our "no contact" phase, I spiralled.

I googled things like:

“How to get him back.”
“Is he thinking about me?”
“Male psychology after a breakup.”

I even stalked his Spotify activity. I’m not proud, but it’s real.

This experience wasn’t just heartbreak. It was my abandonment wound playing out in real time. My unworthiness screamed through every cell in my body. It physically hurt.

And that’s what the shadow does. It plays out our oldest stories while convincing us it’s “just how we are.”

Where Somatics Come In: Before the Brain.

So, how do we make the unconscious conscious? We start with the body.

Every experience you have enters through your nervous system before your brain even makes sense of it. Sensory data moves through your limbic system (your emotional brain) before it ever reaches the prefrontal cortex (your thinking brain).

If we skip the body, we skip the root.

This is why journaling or talk therapy alone may not be enough. You may understand what happened, but your body may still be holding on to unresolved energy.

We get stuck in the “story loop” , thinking about our emotions instead of feeling them. Somatic work interrupts that loop and invites the body back into the healing process.

Somatic Practices to Meet Your Shadow.

Here are five somatic tools you can use to begin working with your shadow:

1. Get Curious, Not Critical.

When you find yourself making judgments about yourself or others, get curious and investigate what might be behind the troublesome behaviour. Ask yourself:

✨ What part of me feels unlovable?
✨ What am I afraid that others will see?
✨ What behaviours do I judge in others that might live in me, too?

2. Track the Sensations of Shame.

Start noticing how shame shows up in your body. Tight jaw? Tense chest? Freezing or numbing? Naming these signals builds body awareness and interrupts the spiral.

3. Stay With It.

This practice is complex and powerful. Let yourself cry. Shake. Breathe. Move. Let the energy run through. You don’t have to analyze it. You just have to stay with it.

4. Soother With Love.

After the wave passes, offer care: A warm bath. A nourishing meal. A gentle hug. Call a friend. Let your body return to safety.

5. Share With Someone Safe.

Shame dissolves when it’s met with compassion. When you speak your truth in a safe, consensual space, your shadow softens. You integrate instead of exile.

Shadow Work Is Not Solo Work.

This work has shaped me, not just as a coach, but as a partner, friend, and woman. In my sessions, I don’t lead you around your shame. I walk with you through it. We meet the fear, the grief, and the tenderness together. We let the body speak. And we trust it knows the way.

There is so much waiting for you under the surface. And you don’t have to do it alone.

If this resonates, I invite you to explore somatic shadow work with me. Let’s walk the path together—with slowness, with breath, and with love.

Your shadow isn’t the problem. It’s the portal.

Ready to Begin?

Let’s explore what intimacy could feel like when your body leads the way.

What Is the Difference Between Somatic Intimacy Coaching and Traditional Sex Therapy?

Wed, 02 Jul 2025 17:11:53 GMT

Sexual healing is a journey, one that often requires support, care, and guidance. Whether you're feeling disconnected from your body, stuck in looping patterns, or longing for deeper intimacy, finding the right kind of support can make all the difference.

Two paths that people often consider are somatic intimacy coaching and traditional sex therapy . While both are powerful, they offer distinct experiences that depend on your goals, needs, and readiness.

In this article, we’ll explore the difference between these two approaches, outline the benefits of a somatic, body-based approach , and help you determine if somatic intimacy coaching might be the next step for your journey.

What Is Traditional Sex Therapy?

Licensed mental health professionals typically practice traditional sex therapy and focus on the psychological aspects of sexuality. This talk-based model helps individuals and couples understand and shift their sexual thoughts, emotions, and behaviours.

Common issues addressed in sex therapy include:

Sexual trauma or abuse;
Performance anxiety or low desire;
Relationship conflict or emotional disconnect;
Sexual identity or orientation exploration; and,
Medical issues impacting sexual function.

Therapists often use methods such as cognitive-behavioural therapy (CBT), mindfulness, and communication tools to help clients understand and change their patterns.

In short, sex therapy tends to be reflective and analytical, often focused on the “why” behind your sexual experiences.

What Is Somatic Intimacy Coaching?

Somatic intimacy coaching, on the other hand, is a body-centred, experiential approach that helps you reconnect with your body, desires, and authentic sexual expression. Rather than staying in the mental story, somatic coaching invites you into the felt experience of your body, at the moment.

In my practice, I utilize the Somatica® Method , a trauma-informed coaching model that focuses on intimacy, embodiment, nervous system regulation, and emotional presence.

Somatic intimacy coaching sessions may include:

Breathwork and body awareness practices;
Mapping boundaries, triggers, and turn-ons;
Practicing communication of desires and needs;
Exploring fantasies and sensual expression;
Navigating emotional blocks to pleasure; and,
Real-time relational and embodiment exercises.

Rather than just talking about intimacy, we practice it to become a living, embodied skill. In short, somatic intimacy coaching focuses on what’s alive in your body now and helps you build new patterns through experiential learning.

Key Differences Between Somatic Intimacy Coaching and Sex Therapy.

Here’s a side-by-side comparison to help clarify the distinction between these two paths:

The Benefits of Somatic Intimacy Coaching.

Whether you’re partnered, single, or exploring your sexuality, the benefits of somatic intimacy coaching offer a holistic and empowering path forward.

1. Deeper Connection to Pleasure.

By learning how to be present with your body, you unlock more sensation, sensuality, and joy in your erotic life, without performance pressure.

2. Enhanced Communication in Relationships.

We’ll practice sharing desires, expressing boundaries, and navigating emotional triggers, all from a place of embodied truth and connection.

3. Greater Emotional Resilience.

You’ll learn how to move through fear, rejection, or self-doubt without collapsing or shutting down—staying grounded in your worth and clarity.

4. Reduced Shame and Increased Confidence.

This work gently unpacks layers of shame and conditioning, helping you feel safe in your body and confident in your expression.

5. A Safe Space to Explore Who You Are.

Somatic coaching honours your uniqueness. There’s no “right way” to be intimate, only your way. And you deserve to explore that without judgment.

Is Somatic Intimacy Coaching Right for You?

If you’ve tried therapy but still feel disconnected from your body…

If you know what you want but don’t feel safe enough to express it…

If you long for more pleasure, presence, and confidence in intimacy…

Somatic intimacy coaching might be your next step.

It’s especially helpful for:

Women with anxious attachment or unworthiness wounds;
Individuals recovering from shame, repression, or shutdown;
Anyone looking to build erotic confidence and deepen intimacy;
People who learn best through doing, not just talking; and,
Those who want to experience real-time relational support and embodiment.

What to Expect in a Somatica ® Coaching Session.

In our sessions together, we co-create a space rooted in safety, curiosity, and compassion. There’s no agenda or pressure to perform—just an invitation to show up fully and meet yourself where you are.

Together, we may explore:

Breath and body awareness;
Emotional expression and regulation;
Exploring your erotic template;
Practicing intimacy in real-time;
Boundary work and energetic attunement; and,
Discovering what’s truly yours in sexuality, not what was taught or expected.

Each session is unique. Each session is yours.

Intimacy Is a Skill—And You Can Learn It!

Healing your relationship with intimacy doesn’t have to be clinical, confusing, or shame-filled. It can be joyful. It can be playful. Furthermore, it can be a return to your deepest self. Somatic Intimacy Coaching offers a path to embodied truth, empowered expression, and more profound connection with yourself, your body, and others. If traditional sex therapy helped you understand your patterns, somatic coaching can help you shift them, from the inside out.

You don’t need to be fixed. You just need to feel. And I’m here to walk with you.

Ready to Begin?

If you’re curious about this work, the best way to know if it’s right for you is to simply try it. Book a free strategy call to share your goals, ask questions, and experience the connection. There’s no pressure—just presence. No performance—just permission.

Let’s explore what intimacy could feel like when your body leads the way.

The Top 5 Benefits of Working with a Somatic Intimacy Coach

Mon, 01 Jul 2019 11:38:31 GMT

Somatic work is becoming more widely recognized, and for good reason. We’re collectively waking up to the truth that healing doesn’t happen in the mind alone. Our bodies carry our stories, patterns, pleasures, and pains. And when we learn how to truly listen to those stories with care and curiosity, profound transformation becomes possible.

As a Somatic Intimacy Coach , I guide people (especially women) into a more profound relationship with their bodies, boundaries, and emotional worlds. Together, we explore what intimacy feels like from your body’s perspective so you can experience a safe, empowered, and deeply satisfying connection.

We were not taught this growing up. We were taught to think our way through life, to be rational, and to keep it together. Not only that, but we were rarely shown how to feel our feelings, express our needs, set healthy boundaries, or stay grounded in connection. Most of us weren’t taught how to do intimacy; we were taught how to perform it.

That’s where somatic intimacy coaching comes in. This work helps you shift from performance to presence, from people-pleasing to authentic self-expression, from confusion to clarity, and from disconnection to deep, embodied love. Starting with yourself.

Here are the top five benefits of working with a somatic intimacy coach like me:

1. Experience a Secure, Loving Attachment.

We all need safety. For many of us, our early experiences taught us that vulnerability leads to pain. So we protect ourselves by over-giving, staying silent, shrinking, or chasing love that never fully lands.

One of the most powerful aspects of this work is the experience of being met in a secure, attuned connection without judgment, pressure, or performance. As your coach, it’s not my job to fix or advise you. It’s my job to hold space for your inner truth to emerge, to model safety, consistency, and care so that your nervous system can relax and begin to trust again.

In that space of secure attachment, we get to explore:

What does trust feel like in your body?
What happens when you slow down and listen inward?
How can you begin to trust yourself as your most reliable source of truth?

We heal in relationships. When your body feels what it’s like to be securely held and respected, that experience becomes a foundation for all future relationships, with others and with yourself.

2. Learn Embodied Connection to Your Feelings, Sensuality, and Sexuality.

Most of us have learned to live in our heads. We overanalyze. We judge ourselves. We loop in guilt or shame. Our thoughts say things like:

“Was that the right thing to say?”
“Why do I always mess this up?”
“Am I too much?”
“Am I not enough?”

The body, however, doesn’t speak in right or wrong. The body speaks in sensation, emotion, contraction, and expansion. It tells us what feels safe, what brings joy, what signals a boundary, and what sparks desire. But we have to learn how to listen to it.

In our work together, I’ll teach you how to attune to your body’s language and track subtle shifts in breath, tension, energy, and sensation. You’ll learn to regulate your nervous system, honour your emotional states, and reclaim your connection to pleasure and aliveness.

Your sensuality and sexuality are not just things you “perform” for someone else. They are part of your life force. They are sacred. And they are yours.

3. Uncover and Accept Who You Are—Your Desires, Needs, and Boundaries.

You are not too much. You are not too needy. And there is no “right” way to be an intimate, emotional, or sexual being.

In somatic intimacy coaching, we explore what’s true for you. This work is empowerment-based, so I’m not here to impose a formula. I’m here to help you discover your inner compass.

Together, we explore your:

Desires: What do you actually want? Not what you think you “should” want.
Needs: What helps you feel safe, seen, supported, and alive?
Boundaries: Where is your “yes”? Where is your “no”? And how do you express it clearly and lovingly?
Capacities: What’s available to you now, and how can you honour that without shame?

You are a unique, beautiful canvas. This work helps you paint a new picture of what’s possible in your intimacy, relationships, and life.

4. Transform Shame and Reclaim Your Self-Expression.

Shame is one of the heaviest emotional burdens we carry. It makes us hide, shrink, and edit ourselves. It tells us we’re broken. Likewise, it keeps our needs in the shadows and our truth stuck in our throats.

But here’s the truth: Shame cannot survive in the presence of compassion. And when you are gently witnessed in your full humanity, when your messy, vulnerable, emotional self is met with love instead of judgment, that shame melts.

In our sessions, we’ll explore the parts of you that feel unworthy, “too much,” or not enough. We’ll give those parts a voice, bring light to what has been hidden, and create space for you to be seen and accepted as you are.

This de-shaming process opens the door to greater self-expression, confidence, creativity, and connection. It’s not about becoming someone new—it’s about returning to who you’ve always been, underneath the shame.

5. Build Emotional Resilience and Learn to Trust Yourself Again.

Life is full of uncertainty. Relationships can bring joy and pain. Vulnerability can open us up and bring disappointment. We can’t avoid heartbreak, rejection, or fear, but we can learn to move through them with grace and groundedness.

One of the most profound outcomes of somatic intimacy coaching is the development of emotional resilience. You learn how to stay with yourself when things feel hard, practice tools to regulate your nervous system during moments of overwhelm, and discover how to navigate fear, grief, and disappointment without abandoning yourself.

Most importantly, you rebuild trust in your ability to feel deeply, recover, and keep showing up for your own life.

In our work together, we’ll practice how to:

Sit with uncomfortable emotions without shutting down or spiralling.
Speak your truth with clarity and care.
Repair after rupture—both with yourself and with others.
Stay open to love even after being hurt.

You become the safe space you’ve been seeking.

Intimacy Is a Skill—And You Can Learn It!

Intimacy isn’t reserved for a lucky few. It’s not something you're either good at or not. It’s a learned skill that begins with awareness, intention, and a willingness to show up.

As your Somatic Intimacy Coach, I don’t have all the answers for your life—but I do know how to walk with you as you find them. Together, we’ll explore what intimacy truly means for you. We’ll co-create a path honouring your body, boundaries, and desires. And we’ll do it all from curiosity, not perfection.

Because you deserve a real connection, you deserve to feel safe, seen, and desired. And you deserve to come home to yourself—body, heart, and soul.

Ready to Begin?

Let’s explore what intimacy could look like for you. Book a free strategy session with me and take the first step toward more joy, aliveness, and more you.